Wednesday, April 26, 2023

Tuesday, April 25, 2023

Thursday, April 20, 2023



Little Egypt


a vulture circles

the point of emptiness

rising above a rotting corpse

once a deer

diluted with distance

until it smells of musk

while at the foot

of a river bluff

in underbrush

a brown thrasher

gets off with the work

of flipping hickory hulls

for the flutter of insect life

as a solicitor fossicks

among old files

in uncontested solitude

the long sifting

of a legal process

drop it drop it

pick it up

pick it up

cover it up




Devin Johnston


Farrar Straus Giroux, 2023

Tuesday, April 18, 2023



Clifford Burke

Clifford Burke

George Kalamaras

Jeffery Beam

John Martone

Monday, April 17, 2023



1930 ~ 2023

All my inspiration comes from Ahmad Jamal


Thursday, April 13, 2023




Figs are sweet, but don't last long.

They spoil fast in transit,

says the shopkeeper.

Like kisses, adds his wife,

a hunched old woman with bright eyes.


Adam Zagajewski

True Life

Translated by Clare Cavanagh

Farrar Straus Giroux, 2023

Saturday, April 8, 2023

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Wednesday, April 5, 2023

Monday, April 3, 2023



The Matyó Embroidery

On the platter set out in the center of the Matyó-embroidered tablecloth
was the syringe. And around it was silence. My father
gazed at my mother, and she back at him. Slowly,
faltering, he began to speak. I was seized by
an unusual shuddering. I recall that he used the word fate,
and that if   I consented to the injected dose,
we could all fall asleep. We would stay together
for all time. And evade the uncertainty in mortifying 
desperation. A fifteen-year-old’s desire to live 
cried out in me: “No!” To which
my father stated: “If you want to live, then
we too must keep on living, because we can’t leave you
by yourself.” My father was the village doctor. I grew up
with no siblings. My mother’s sister lived next door,
with her husband and two children, Nelly and Gyurika.
In the evenings I prayed: “Merciful Lord of mine,
My eyes have closed, but thine, yet still are open, father mine,
Watch over me as I recline.” Then this: “In one God 
I believe, in one homeland I believe, in the eternal 
divine truth I believe, in Hungary’s re-
surrection I believe. Amen.” Gyuri could not study in Pest,
he went to Brünn. Later, not even there. Then the family
sent him to Toulouse. My mind could not comprehend. Then
one of uncle Vilmos’s servants murdered him with six ax-blows.
He screamed crazed into the courtyard: “That’s what
the stinking   Jew deserved!” I found him, his head smashed open.
I ran to my father, who didn’t even believe it. And one after
the other, the horrors came. Nelly lived in Újvidék 
with her husband. Uncle Ernő was in the middle of shaving when
Hungarians broke into the flat. They were looking for the family. 
The nanny quickly threw a quilt onto six-month-old Tomika,
they didn’t notice him. Peterke was out with Nelly. Uncle Ernő
was executed on the ice of   the Danube. Nelly did not recover.
She knitted pullovers, each more beautiful than the next, so as not
to feel the pain. She went to Pest to learn a trade,
so she could support her children. That’s how it was when
nineteen-forty-four came. On March 15, one of my teachers said,
“You remain seated,” while the class sang the Anthem,
“and be quiet.” On the day of the nineteenth, the Germans
invaded. From then on, it was obligatory to wear the star.
Through the intervention of the medical officer and the Lord Lieutenant, my father
could have stayed out. I had to move to the ghetto with my mother. My
father said “The family should stay together.” All up and down
our street they stood, to bid farewell. Father acknowledged
them, but already he was just waiting
for the end. He had aged by decades. Then the injection,
the one I already spoke of, turned up on the table with the
Matyó embroidery. We sat in the evening underneath the open sky
before being loaded onto the freight cars. The doctor from the next village
drank mercury chloride with his wife. Despite my father’s stomach lavage,
they succumbed by the morning. There were eighty of us in the wagon.
An expectant mother gave birth on the way. But with no water, my father
could not save them. There were those who went mad in the freight cars.
My father taught me always to say “Ich will
arbeiten.” On the seventh of   July the train stopped. Father read 
the plaque, Auschwitz-Birkenau, and said, “We are
lost!” Megaphones blared, “Leave your packages
in the wagons, they will be brought to you later. Special vehicles
are coming for the sick and the elderly, just remain sitting,”
they repeated, “everything will be fine. Men exit
the wagon to the left, women to the right.” As farewell, 
my papa said, “Always be my clever, my obedient, my good 
little girl...    ” That is how we parted for eternity. Tomika and Peterke
were squeezing my hand tightly, but my mother said, “Don’t
you want to sit down? We can walk. Come...    ”
We moved forward in a column of five rows. The bulbs of the searchlights
blinded us in the eyes. A German officer, legs wide apart. He stood there
somewhere far away. Sent us to the right. Had to get undressed
in a room. Then they sent us into another, and the iron door slammed,
bolted shut. Screaming, I pounded on it again and again. We truly 
were lost, as last I understood.... Turning around, the others
already shaved bald. I didn’t recognize anyone.
They stood there like sheep. Upon their skin, the writing of gooseflesh.


Source: Poetry (November 2013)