MAHMOUD DARWISH









HE WHO WAITED FOR NO ONE



He waited for no one. He felt no lack in existence.
Before him a river, ashen as his overcoat,
and sunlight filling his heart with awakening brightness
and the tall trees.


He felt no defect in the place. The wooden seat, his coffee,
the glass of water, the strangers;
everything in the cafe the same.


Nothing had changed. Even the newspapers
yesterday's news, and an old world floating as usual on the dead.
He felt no need for hope to amuse him
like the unknown growing green in the desert
or some wolf longing for a guitar.


He expected nothing, not even a surprise,
he could not cope with repetition.
I knew the end of the journey from the first step,
he says to himself,
I have not withdrawn from the world,
nor have I gotten closer to the world.


He waited for no one, and he felt no defect
in his senses. Autumn was still his royal host,
luring him with music that returned him
to a golden age of awakening,
to poetry rhyming with stars and space.


He waited for no one in front of the river


In the no-waiting, I become an in-law to the sparrow.
In the no-waiting, I become a river—he said—
I am not hard on myself.
I am not hard on anyone.


And I escape the serious question:
What do you want
What do you want?




translated by Mohammad Shaheen

democracynow.org

Known as the Palestinian national poet, Mahmoud Salem Darwish was born in 1941 in al-Birwah, a village in the city district of Western Galilee, in Palestine, to a farming family, and passed away during the summer of 2008 in Houston, Texas.

ARTS & CRAFTS

I figured you would be wondering where I was in the Clemente book you bought for me, so I told you. I would have read and looked through it all in a one night marathon of goodness, but I wanted to savor this one. Other art books could easily be visited for two hours or less and feel replenished. Dab the napkin on the lips, move on. But Clemente is a full course meal. I tried one more time reading the heavy book in bed and it wasn't as cold last night, and I found a way to adjust the turn of the pages with a rhythm between myself and the quilts. Isn't everything a negotiation? A rhythm? Even taking the stairs in your office between the 18th and 19th floors, or 18th to the 17th, and it all has a rhythm. So what if it is a mere one floor apart either way — neither way would be the same. Perhaps a different shade of paint to the walls, a little crumpled paper in one corner, even the scuff of the steps is different between floors. I can understand why you would take the stairs between one floor, but otherwise you wisely choose the elevator. With everyone else.


I want to think of you in that elevator. The finest elevator Sweetheart and I were ever in was a posh hotel in Los Angeles when we were just off four days on the cattle train from the east coast and we were picking up a rental car and it was at this hotel. Sunday morning, still a sleepy hour. We didn't need to take the glass elevator on the outside of the building gliding up and then back down, but how to resist? So we didn't. We rode. This gave Sweetheart a splendid view of the city where she was raised.

Bob Arnold used to like watching Roberto Clemente as a boy, but this isn’t about that great player, and he usually avoids elevators and takes the stairs.

image: Francesco Clemente, Map of What Is Effortless

BEI DAO









THE ROSE OF TIME


when the watchman falls asleep
you turn back with the storm
to grow old embracing is
the rose of time


when bird roads define the sky
you look behind at the sunset
to emerge in disappearance is
the rose of time


when the knife is bent in water
you cross the bridge stepping on flute-songs
to cry in the conspiracy is
the rose of time


when a pen draws the horizon
you're awakened by a gong from the East
to bloom in the echoes is
the rose of time


in the mirror there is always this moment
this moment leads to the door of rebirth
the door opens to the sea
the rose of time







THE ROSE OF TIME
New Directions, 2010
edited by Eliot Weinberger
translators include Weinberger, David Hinton & others

photo © bob arnold

THE COMFORT OF STRANGERS

Never a dull moment. Here's what I forgot to mention earlier.

How we were waiting to see what would win out today — the sunshine, or the new John Keats/Fanny Brawne film { Bright Star }. Everybody we know from the west coast to the east coast has been talking about this film, and we thought for sure we might be able to duck into a matinee, and then the day went gorgeous on us, perfect for sharing a fall apple, and we ended up for part of the afternoon instead of indoors with the film, sitting with one of those apples at a garden shutting down for the season. Ah, the sun. Ah, the vitamin D. No movie. Another sort of movie was about to happen.

And when we got home along the river we hopped onto the bicycles and just started riding, along the river, south. We didn't see anyone, though a few dogs barked, and there was a tractor pulled off the road and into a wood's edge and someone I thought I knew was tugging a cable off the winch of the tractor but he was too far off and his back was turned and we kept riding. Day still glorious.

Some miles later, and going past the state line, we returned the same way along the river. Nearing the tractor again I could see long before the tractor the worker through the brush and he wasn't working, in fact he appeared at a standstill, maybe waiting for something to happen, or maybe stymied. No sound of chain saw. Things didn't look right.

I know when things don't look right with a mammoth white pine, a taut cable line, and a worker all used up. Sure enough, his chain saw was pinched tight at the back cut of the pine stump. I could imagine that when I quickly parked my bike near the tractor and worked my way up through the brush and rock tangle to get to the guy. I'd been there myself. First thing I suggested was we get that chain saw apart from the pinched bar and chain and leave the bar behind in the stump momentarily and save the brains and expense of a chain saw. It's a grubby Husky, but still the guy told me it cost him $600 once upon a time. He was all for it. Even though the box cut was well done and the back cut was already deep enough to make us both nervous why the tree wasn't going anywhere, we still had to get on the ground an inch from the tree and noodle this saw free. I could see he'd been pounding all the wedges he brought with him (two) and then he got desperate and made some thicker wood wedges out of flimsy pine and all he had was a 16 ounce hammer to pound it all in with. It's never good. I got him to lighten up a little when I said it could be worse and we're doing this in 3 feet of snow. With a killer wind. Yes, it felt a little better.

Sweetheart stayed safely down on the road watching two crazies not quite thinking in their minds about anything except this tree had to come down. Can't leave it. No chain saw. The bar's under a tree with the weight of a house on it. Either that cable, which has been strung way too low — no purchase for leverage to convince the tree about anything — has got to be let-go and let the tree fall backwards, sideways, or however. It may just stand there. We've seen that. The guy's concerned about the landowner's few fruit trees. It's amazing how the finest details come into play with something big and ornery. The tree might go backwards and flatten any memory of those fruit trees, or else it may lean just 5 feet to the left and fall like a circus act right onto a large pile of pine tops and brush left over from an earlier big tree. Let's just loosen the cable and take a chance.

We loosen and the tree came right at us. It was quite a surprise. Either the taut cable was holding the tree up from falling correctly, or else the pine tree was locked up way high where no one but a bird could see how a top branch was lodged in with a neighborly tree. Anyway, it came. Sweetheart was running up the road! Me and the other wood's fool stood our ground, somehow already calculating it wouldn't get near us, or the tractor, and anyway I was seriously transfixed watching such beauty decline. I always am. A whole afternoon of sunshine rushing right in after it. In fact I could see the sunshine mellow the middle boughs as it was toppling and I was pretty sure I'd never see that again.

The guy's a big guy. When I slapped him twice on the back to feel-good, he felt like the rump of a pony. I've been in this river valley so long and I know this guy comes from a farming family I knew once as boys, but I can't remember which one he is. And he never said my name, or greeted Sweetheart. But when I turned for my bicycle he said, "Thanks. Thanks for the. . . comfort."

WHIT GRIFFIN, traveling photographer

Bob, Susan, Greetings from the Nantahal Forrest. Whit









Sent from my iPhone ( North Carolina, Nov. 1, 09 )

GIRL FROM THE NORTH COUNTRY

Ever since Johnny Cash passed away, his daughter Rosanne has been saying goodbye to him. One way of saying goodbye is never to say it — keep the song & life going. When Rosanne was a youngster she would hear these songs from her father's hands. Who was that? she asked. Came the name. Never heard of him (or her), over & over again. It frustrated her. So thoughtful Pa started to make a List of essential songs, 100 to be exact. Rosanne Cash kept this list, learned from this list, and now we can hear just how well she listened and deepened. We receive here a neat dozen songs from the essential list. Of course we want all 100, but be patient. We get Merle Haggard, Hedy West, Hank Snow and Harlan Howard 'a plenty, naturally A.P. Carter, and a version of Bob Dylan's "Girl From the North Country" that'll bring the cows home. Or tears to your eyes. Finally we hear singing from what could be the 'girl' herself. Desolate, searching, sonorous, telling.

SMITHEREENS



Best to be prudent with a computer virus
Macs are pretty immune to viruses
Not bullet-proof, but close

One doesn't want to start getting cocky
About viruses or one's machine
Any machine

Last night I watched a mega-ton monster truck
Hurdle itself after charging a ramp
And just about lift vertically in the air

All to smash a pumpkin grown over the last six months
(it grew 50 pounds a day)
Into smithereens

The pumpkin didn't stand a chance
It was something like 1600 pounds
Yes, a huge pumpkin maneuvered here and there by forklift

It was smashed with one downward thrust of Mr. Monster
But that wasn't enough
It never is

The truck went thrashing away
Always looking ridiculous with little body and all-wheels these things
Only to return to grind up the pumpkin more and more

The owner said each seed was worth $500
I've grown pumpkins and carved pumpkins out for Halloween —
There's lots of seeds!

Supposedly there's some magic genetics to these giant pumpkin seeds
I put down what I was reading, Wendell Berry's The Mad Farmer Poems
(no kidding)
To witness this gross exaggeration

I don't know why I haven't gone nuts yet



Bob Arnold says, or have I ?



image: http://westseattleblog.com/blog/?p=3896

MARIE PONSOT









ALONGSIDE THE POND



At the edge of vision

just short of sight

pond air shimmers pearly

unbroken ungated. Bright

mist engages me

silent unmediated.




When I turn

and look into it



I want birds.

Share a poem this morning from one of the skilled technicians, as she has been since her first book from City Lights True Minds, somewhat forgotten in the San Francisco publisher's legacy since Ponsot was and is no Beat, but she is thoroughly beatitude. Poetry of the fullest senses. This may be her most interesting book, published in her late eighties, and pushing pushing at the no-limit edges of the poem. Lyrical gems, tv program news, personal portraits, landscape art. The silence and small bigness of this poem alone had me in its aura. And aura is that instance when nothing else matters.

FILE FOR THE 22 PROSE PIECES



Dear Joj,

So it is you, and not Jewell, who is sending out the prose pieces. 22 to be exact. I like the title and it looks like everything came through okay, except for how the titles got separated from each body of text. Probably missed the 'enter' button as you maneuvered or broke the pages between each prose poem? I'll know best when I receive the hard copy, which will be the same as hard cider, or hard liquor. The real deal. The paperwork. Thanks for sending both, J. Never mind you having to prepare the ms., between one virus'd computer to a better mate's and completing the job. We keep saying to folks, like we owe stock in Apple, get a Mac get a Mac.

Like I mentioned before, I won't (but I will) get to reading until after Nov 5. or so. That initial date by you was put into my hard head and I won't be able to re-program any earlier. I read an essay yesterday on Ralph Nader where it was presumed much of his problem getting across with the new society we have is that he is too damn literal. He means what he says. As opposed to a million-billion out there who are white liars. The essay also dragged along and also presumed some of his other problems is that he has never had, seemingly, a sexual relationship with anyone or anything. No girlfriends, no wife, they can't dig up a hooker or even an under age intern or fawning school girl or boy fascinated by old greasy stories of General Motors, Corvairs or arcane environmental abuses.

No, I don't believe for a minute you are one of the white liars.

And perish the thought I am asexual.

Next week is consumed with doctor appointments once again, breaking in with a new dentist who I have heard is past thorough, tracking down snow tires, returning to 'Mad Men' (Midas, yes them!) because since I wrote that piece and our forceful letter of complaint to the corporate office, they have returned with a deal on a complete exhaust system that really can't be turned down. Do I now trust them? No. In fact I've just now at this early hour conjured up all sorts of scenarios where the one disgrunt foreman in there tosses in faulty pipe just so the system botches up by mid-winter. Payback is hell, and we limp back and ask, "So what's this?" Since August I have been rolling under the truck applying muffler cement to the catalytic-converter region with my fingers. The only tool. Quiet the beast.

I know you have no time for this lengthy letter, but I figure between Joj and Jewell it will be read.

We've been debating all week between us if we should head north this afternoon for a book sale in the town where Ken Burns lives. We've gone the past two years when it was simpler, Saturday morning, and no fee of admission. Suddenly it is at a cost of $10 each, in the evening, only for an hour and a half (Saturdays was spend the day with us) and it's all about the special occasion. This often comes with the special prices way over a literal person's head. It could be a bust that makes a rotten way to start off Halloween. It could force us, if the sale is zippo, to dress up and parade around in this faraway town with toddlers asking for candy. "Aren't you two too old?" will be the dominant question thrown at us. In fact it would be said in the tone that isn't at all a question.

This is a rather long letter of acceptance declaring your poetry manuscript has arrived and I will begin reading when I shut up.

You owe me a long letter one of these days which only begins to detail your shyest of secrets
all's well

photo © bob arnold

A BLACK TRUCK, BLACK BUG, AND THE BLONDE

I have read all of Thoreau’s Journals. I started at age 15 and have been through it now a few times. Last Fall I reread his rambles in Maine again, nice and woolly, but I think I’ll take another peek and see if Greenleaf H. Davis gets mentioned. Peter Garland just sent to me in a letter a notice from “Foundational Maine Fiddler” all about Davis. Thoreau tended to stay skimpy on many personal names, but not always. One goes to Maine with Thoreau just about in his sleeping blankets. You’re there. Sweetheart and I went deep into Baxter State Park in 1975, three moose just about clipped our black VW while jumping the road we were rounding our way on. That same car got us to Newfoundland and way up the rugged sea-swept western coast. Too bad the car was totaled in a freak Christmas morning accident on ice two months later. Almost into town (12 miles from here) and all in an ice-storm, taking it at 25 mph. is my guess, and coming around a corner there were two vehicles waiting for us stalled on slick ice. Both lanes boxed. I was driving and instead of trying a squeeze between either vehicle (even with the VW probably not) I stayed in our lane and aimed for the GMC 3/4 ton truck looking at us with the wide radiator panel. Hit it square. It turned out a mother and young son were inside, the mother pregnant. No problem to the truck, or mother, but our bug was gone, leaking gas everywhere from what got busted on impact. I shouted to the kid to run up to the corner and flag down anyone coming...turns out a buckaroo in a black pickup was storming our way. The kid did his job and the truck ended up going flyless off the road and down into the brook. Better there than into all of us. As I remember in the other lane, the couple were elderly and paralyzed. Stayed put. Naturally in 15 minutes the sand truck finally showed up and budged everyone free while we were stuck with a cop, and Christmas morning mind you, who refused to give us a lift back into town. Must of been my ZZ Top beard? We ended up hiking, for weeks later, the two miles up river to the village from our cabin, to catch rides with neighborly neighbors going-in.

photo © bob arnold

BIGGER THAN YOU



So many have lived like I do in the far off country
And no one knew them either —

Farmers, Woodchoppers, Spectacles, Poets
Frozen feet inside well built boots gone worn

Work hands in big gloves
Nostrils watering and pinched by the blunt morning

20 below zero
River barely with a sound

That’s the ice —
Climb down through the trees, always get closer, you’ll hear something

Poem after poem I write and it's the woman I love who reads them
By firelight, by window light, by her own light

Not many buy my books in bustle world
Don’t fret, don’t weep, write more!

I write enough poems to fill a small book just
Carrying the ash pan out to the snow paths

Spreading ash onto the ice so no one slips —
First rule of poetry: no rules, Be Considerate

All of this is done in a day world of sunshine
Or beneath a night world of oh-my-gosh stars

Could we possibly count them all?




Bob Arnold says : it’s all in the title

LONGHOUSE AUTHORS LIVE, WORK & PLAY OUTDOORS!







Below are new booklets NOW.

Visit ~ What's New at Longhouse Fall 2009

~


WATCH FOR
FORTHCOMING
NEW TITLES
BY

THOMAS MEYER, JOHN LEVY, ANDREW SCHELLING, TOM CLARK, BOB ARNOLD, AUSTIN SMITH, JONATHAN GREENE, THOMAS A CLARK, JANINE POMMY VEGA, GUY BIRCHARD, CID CORMAN

Bill Porter, The Great Kashgar Bus Convoy — a two booklet wrap of Bill's travels in China on the Silk Road, where he has also drawn from ancient poetry & texts translated as Red Pine.

"In the Fall of 1992 Finn Wilcox and I set out on the Silk Road from its eastern terminus in Sian/Xian. Four weeks later, we were sitting in the lobby of the Chini Bagh Hotel in Kashgar. We had traveled as far west in China as we could go and were waiting for word on how to proceed to our final destination, which was Islamabad. The Karakoram Highway was the only road there, and it had been closed by landslides more than a month. And there were no flights."







Gary Hotham, Sand Over Sand —Whether Maryland, Germany, Norway, small poems go with Gary — this single leaf foldout of a dozen new poems.




sunrise –

a moth that didn't get

out of the room



~



within hearing —

new leaves

a day older



~

which star

—

which star

further

Gerry Loose, Starworks — Gerry on his houseboat, wood's trail, or town walk blown this way from Scotland — double leaf catch of many many poems.





soft owl calls in dawn snow just

so & snow calling dawn owls in



~



the pond's interior has two herons

inside I swim slow air



~



leaves still on the tree wind mooching

as far as they're able I'm rooted here








Bob Arnold, My Sweetest Friend — A triple brochure wrap of 38 poems as one-long-poem tribute, concerning the sudden loss of an older sister who was once a close childhood friend.


HONOR

let me tell you one thing about suicide

if a loved one has the guts or the heartbreak
to pull this off, you better have the same to
say this is how it all ended

even if you argue with her or him in your mind
every day as you bake bread
rake leaves
drive to work
return library books
tie your shoes
walk a cross walk
mail a letter
split wood
and try to sing in the shower again









Jason Clark, Abandoned Kingdoms 1-6 — Jason's artist notebook of abandoned tree houses from the northern woods — six portraits on fold-out leaf with the artist's text, and one poem by Bob Arnold.

















Bob Arnold, On Which~Way Trail — love poems from the woods and the trail. 24 poems wrapped in a variation of handmade covers and endpapers.



THE GARDEN


I see her out a window the one I love
She sees me and smiles

Looks to me again and smiles

Really, she was leaning to look
At the start of spring lettuce



~



BEING HUMAN


Seeing this —
let me today

if only for a
few moments

twirl like
this autumn

leaf, midair
just like

that, with-
out a care


Visit ~ What's New at Longhouse Fall 2009

BACK ROAD CHALKIES OCTOBER 09

photo © longhouse

~

& Remembering Soupy Sales!

(1926-2009)

ABC OF READING

a.

Today in town a woman student from Bennington College in high leather boots and tight jeans approached me on the sidewalk as I pawed through $1 LPs in crates and asked if she could take my photograph. I had already noticed her from afar. I looked into her face and asked what the photographs were all about. She said she was on a school project, something about sidewalk life and people in Vermont towns. Bright eyes. A smile that worked well. Acne. I smiled and said, "Okay" and just kept on looking through the LPs. We were alone. Sunny sidewalk. People passing by and the slowed down midtown traffic. I heard her camera shutter work six times before she had enough and then she said, "Thank you", still smiling. I said, "Good luck."


b.

After town today, and all the errands, we came home to work in the woods. I hand split all the cherry tree that was waiting down in the woodlot. It's a huge pile. Spread through the sun. It'll be three truck loads to get it home on Wednesday. Now you know what will happen on Wednesday when Junior Pilot, our son’s puppy, is back again with us and the cherry wood comes home and gets stacked. We made this plan sitting on a stump taking a breather while we each ate an apple Sweetheart brought from the house in a bag with a bottle of cold water.


c.

Then came evening, after supper, Sweetheart fell asleep by the fire still dogged by the lyme disease and still making the most of every day. Sunshine in the face, hard at work daytime pushing it through, and I’ve got more stovewood to bring in for this fire. I tell myself this. The woodfire (a friend) always tells me this. Should I check into the Angels and the Yankees game, or Phillies? and I get to neither. Instead I look and read through the new and big beautiful book of Jim Marshall’s photographs with Janis blue sky on the cover. San Jose shot, 1968; a wonderful memory and in Marshall’s eye not gone at all, not gone at all. And when I’m done with the book the phone rings like a fire engine in the night within these small rooms of woodfire and lamplight. It’s Janine Vega to tell me her very good friend and her poetry a very good friend to me Lenore Kandel has passed away. Janine once went to Hawaii with Lenore, when they were both young. Flying into and with that blue sky San Jose day.

GOODBYE GOODBYE

LENORE KANDEL

POET


1932-2009



…the face of all the gods

and beautiful demons

WHAT IS OCTOBER










a


little


rain





a


little


shine







this is the sort of poem that has to be found at the right-time, otherwise there are millions out there and I could be one who sez aloud: what in the world does he think it's all about out here, we're hurting, we're broke, we've just been fired, the hospital visit sucked, the snow tires can't be found, the puppy made a mess on the floor, the day's going to the dogs and rain, and the donuts were stale and nothing hurts more than a stale donut Sunday morning, so get this itsy-bitsy stupid poem out of my face. And you dare it anyway.

“If it sounds like writing, rewrite it.”— Elmore Leonard

10 AM




in full sun —



catbird

phoebe

hummingbird
(between the two)



on the telephone wire

as still as






It is now October and Bob Arnold hears the catbird hanging around, the phoebe gone, and the hummingbird is memory

QUESTIONS THAT ANSWER




INDOORS



Is it raining out?

Are the leaves moving?






OUTDOORS



Is it raining out?

Are you wet?





Bob Arnold says be practical — don’t answer the phone before answering the door.









RETURN TO THE EARTH



When the one I love drives away in the morning
I blow her a kiss


When I see the oriole fly from apple tree to maple tree
I love the world


Impending rain clouds darkening the hillside to the east
— that’s morning!


I have a bathroom with a rotted floor and all facilities in place
Get down to work


I have a bathroom that used to be an outhouse
Built over an earthen floor


The house is 220 years old, what did you expect?
Return to the earth


Friends write to me this morning from all over the world
We have come this far


But it is now raining
The oriole has gone hidden


I think of friends
Standing on earth






Bob Arnold says — It don’t mean a thing / if it ain’t got that friend (swing)

JONATHAN GREENE





This is a calling-out to all to give a full embrace right now to our good friend Jonathan Greene — rushed this morning into a Kentucky hospital for brain surgery. This is the moment, we are its time.



Friday PM update: We hear from Dobree — Jonathan has come through surgery and is resting. Terrific news.



For further active information: http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/jonathangreene/journal

Bob and Susan Arnold

WORKING THE AUTUMNAL WOODS
Vermont

Here we are / here you are

setting up the villa of bucked stumps to hand-split, all rock maple






taking care of our son's puppy Junior Pilot, a kiss






a full tree split, stacked cairn, walk the ground






tools of the trade & helper





an apple a day....






in the bowl of sunshine





maple splits & a little beech added in



finis




all photographs by Bob Arnold except where he appears, then Susan Arnold took over. October woods c/o of Vermont. Planet Earth. No cellphones, no roads, tell time by the sky. Wood cut and split for winter 2011.

NO WAY OUT

I was with Sweetheart yesterday on the rounds between NH-VT hospitals and the battery of her tests. This is all a ragged trail continuation for a year and a half now fighting Lyme disease and one mysterious ailment followed by another that has come with the bugger. You'd rather not be a head-case, if you don't mind, but you are. I am, perhaps, more than Sweetheart as I try to protect her, get her to appointments, swim salmon up-river with the medical riff-raff. More tests tomorrow: a CAT scan. Next week the colonoscopy. The staff are all middle-aged women and devoted, the doctors are these things locked in their cells. They won't give an inch until they've supplied the insurance companies with a galaxy of costs and put the patient under the proverbial thumb. The new-fangled hospitals are all like cheap coated luxury motels. The elderly decked out on the mezzanine floor in box seats, piped in music of some sort, shit head carpet, junk art on all the walls. The whole contraption just breathing in and exhaling out two scummy words: heart and cancer. There's no evidence of real heart anywhere, just the flagging one. But like I say, the ton of pleasant professional women as receptionists and nurses etc are holding the whole place up. And probably back at home, too. They are truly a new salt of the earth quality all to themselves. There's a million ways into the place, wide glassy doors, but no way out.

(so get playful)

I went into another hospital two days later and gave three vials of blood. It should do me for the next 4-5 years or so, except for the prostate which I stay up on. Though I am reading more on the iffy of all prostate tests. I decided to do all the tests to be a good sport while Sweetheart is dragged into her own test after test — be a true companion during this miserable rut. The nurse on call was extremely pleasant. She saw the new Flannery O'Connor biography I had as traveler with me for all the waiting I would be doing that morning and asked immediately what I was reading. I put Flannery down on the bench nearby and pointed back at the book and said "Flannery O'Connor", the same way Columbus said "America". With pride. She said O I don't know her work, should I? I said you most definitely should, but later I realized as with Celine or Beckett even Flannery has to ride with a footnote: can you take artificial niggers and the violent who bear it away? If not, don't go reading. She then asked me why I would read such a book...was I a teacher or?...and the words stopped there and her eyes widened as she searched mine. The coast looked clear so I told her I was a writer. Being a very pleasant woman she said "Oh" and really meant it. She then asked if it was possible to find my books in the local libraries and I told her it would be and I drew a map on my palm just where the books were in the library, what shelf, last dusted and how long the books have sat there untouched. I told her there were a few libraries in the area with said books of this blood giver. I also offered that the fine book store on Main Street had my books. She didn't look ready for me to tell her the store also had Cid's selected poems and it's been there for two years. Untouched. Even after Sweetheart put it on display (taking down someone like Heaney who has had enough exposure). All the while this was going on the poor woman couldn't find my vein. Well she found it, but it kept "slipping away". She dug deeper and poked a bit harder. I saw her walk in at 9:30 and she took me in at 9:40 so I was her first patient and I was only sorry she had to get a slippery one so early in the day. She told me I would probably bruise and I smiled knowing she was going off at the end of the day to buy all my books and start her poetry library...what's a bruise?

Bob Arnold says, if you can muster it, go to a doctor with a song in your heart