FARRAR, 2017
THE ALONE TONIGHT
I don't want to live with the alone tonight
Stay lost at home on my own tonight
But if I leave and go down to the street
The roads all throw their crosses at my feet
And words out loud the crowds all yell me
I don't want to die I hear them all tell me
And when their throats fall quotably quiet
Can I stand out dope and hope my own don't deny it
All songs are the same they show my shame in kind
The words are plain the pain finds its name in mine
It's no mistake I lie awake so straight and still
The maze I cannot penetrate waits at my doorsill
I could build bridges that make the sea blink
But there's no bank to build them from here on this nearside I think
They told me sold me how to live I had to buy it
But then they made me give up my seat in the riot
I don't want to live with the alone tonight
I'd love to reign on this throne tonight
I'm the empire at home on my own tonight
Habitat zone in my headphones tonight
The poems I wrote are afraid to quote me
Out loud that shroud of yowls won't save me
I don't want to live I hear them say daily
I don't want to die so please won't you say me
I don't want to stay please won't you play me
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